1-800-looking for a fix

So, I've done it again. Got suckered in to trying some new "fix" to solve my weight loss woes. I've been working my tail off in the gym with a personal trainer to no avaial-well, I guess if you consider 3 pounds in 15 weeks a success then I probably need to have your positive outlook. For me, 3 pounds in 15 weeks with intense training is not acceptable.
Has anyone tried Rob Poulos' "Fat Burning Furnace"? Well, stick with me folks and I'll do my best to chart my experience. He claims to have figured out a way to make your body into a fat burning machine in about 45 minutes a week. Not sure if I completely buy in, but what the hay...let's give it a go.
I ordered my book online at the very reasonable $39; of course, that's a discount off the regular $79. And, you don't have to wait-they actually send you a PDF file of the book so you can get started right away. Personally, I think this is genuis. He has relatively NO production costs; how fabulous is that? The $39 is all profit; of course he does have his marketing expenses. Anyway, I realize I'm sounding a bit pessimistic which is not my style. I'm going to give this a go, try my best, give it a go and hope (and pray) for the best.
I hope you all have a fantastic New Year's Eve! I plan to post more regularly in the New Year...of course, I hope to eat better, exercise and lose a few pounds in the New Year, too. Let's see which of those actually come to fruition. :) Happy 2010!!

Guilt with a side dish of extra guilt

Why is it so hard for mom's to carve out a few moments during the day for themselves? I find that I am riddled with guilt over any time I try and devote to myself. This becomes an increasingly more difficult task as I put my health and wellness not only on the radar screen, but at the forefront of my priorities.
Tonight, my training was scheduled for 5:30. Due to a series of unforeseen circumstances, I was unable to make it to my session tonight. And, the main reason I made the decision not to go was based on my guilt. I was literally in tears as I made my way home. What I find amazing is that the tears were in part brought on by my frustration; "Why can I not just take an hour today to better my health; why does this have to be so hard?" I'm sure these are all conversations you've had with yourself as well. But, what I found surprising is that a new wave of guilt washed over me...the guilt of NOT working out; of NOT taking that time to better my health. So, I took care of what was most pressing after stepping in the door and rallied my kids and we ALL went down to the basement so I could run on the treadmill while I heard about their day.
I hear over and over again that life is a practice in finding balance. I hope that I find a way to balance on the beam of life here soon...and maybe lose a couple pounds in the meantime.

I met with my trainer tonight along with my fellow team members. For those who haven't followed my adventures on Facebook, I joined the Attack the Fat Challenge at The Freedom Center (where I work out) about 11 weeks ago. The Blue Busters was the team I was assigned to and we actually like each other and enjoy working out together. There's something to be said for getting a group together and holding each other accountable. As well as enduring the workouts together and realizing that we aren't actually going to die. We may pass out, throw up or simply collapse--but we will survive! And as a friend of mine told me, "Pain is only temporary." That, has gotten me through many a workout. Anyway, at the end of the challenge, we chose to continue our workouts with our trainer, together. We also take other classes together such as spinning or sculpting or cardio.

So, after 11 weeks I am down a whopping 3 pounds. Yes, I know what you're thinking...can I also work out 7 days a week for 11 weeks straight in order to lose so much weight? Yes, you can! And, you would likely (and hopefully) see a number much higher than mine. Ugh. It has needless to say, been a bit frustrating at times to get through the workouts, not only physically but mentally and emotionally with no immediate gratification of seeing the number go down on the scale. And, I'm totally sick of hearing people try to console me with, "but don't you feel better?" Yes. I do, but it really doesn't ease the pain of making sacrifices, my family making sacrifices (did I mention that I have three kids under 6 and work a full time job?) all for a whopping 3 pounds on the scale. BUT-I will persevere! I will continue on this journey and am positive that this journey will result with the realization of my goal...to fit in a Lilly Pulitzer dress by summer...

Well, I've been meaning to start a blog to chart my progress and it's only taken me about 10 weeks to do it. I'm diligently trying to lose weight and I know I'm not alone in this struggle. I'm looking for friends to join me on this journey to health and wellness...all while maintaining my usual sunny disposition, wit and most of all humor. If we can't laugh at ourselves we end up taking ourselves and our struggles a bit too seriously. I may be chunky, pleasantly plump, curvaceous or perhaps even fat...but that in and of itself does not define me.